The Reasons Why I Fail

It was a trying time for me since the last time I posted. I just messed up a lot these past few weeks, all to varying degrees of inexcusability.

Failure 1: Communication

I lost my way. What was I trying to do in my very hard college course? I wanted to break free from this shell of mine. I wanted to push myself to the utmost limits of human ability. But I was wrong. I didn't know that we are not created equal. The body is not a template which the mind makes unique, the body is unique as well. In the end, the shell I was trying to break free from was just a makeshift shell of the real shell. A sort of mock shell. A mock barrier or limit. It seems that I only set it so high so that I could attain it. But right now, I'm not trying to break the shell, mock or otherwise. I've lost the will to do anything. I try to make things right, just so I don't feel guilty.

That's my failure, I failed to communicate not only with myself, but also with others. I go on living, hoping that people would understand the situations they are in, but I always run away, because I am the messenger. I am the link. And I failed in being that link by being my self.