Things That Have Gone Astray

The light, the one that illuminates my path, has disappeared. I cannot see it. I cannot see it anymore. There used to be a word for not being selfish. It's called "we", or "us". I just can't seen to use those anymore. There "I" go again, being self-centered. Why am I here? I've lost it. I've gone astray. I just can't find a reason to hang around in the physical realm. Just like what I have been saying in past posts, my organization(of which I am now a member of) has really screwed my head. Now, I barely have time to contemplate on my life and think of all the problems that riddle our planet today and how I can help. No, now it's all about cheap thrills and temporary highs. I can't believe that I'm losing my mind. But I guess I am. That's why my light has disappeared. Because I'm not a genius like all the other people of the world. For me, I have to really spend some time just thinking about what I'm doing and where I'm heading. I can't see. I'm blinded.

If you want to change the system, you must beat the system in its own game. That's my plan on my org, my college, my university. So far, it has been on a status quo. It sometimes gets frustrating to just watch eveything happen right in front of you. Somehow, I've got to regain my footing and be tougher, more soulful, and more reflective. Maybe lightening up a notch or twenty will work, as well.

This is surely a very short post, I've got only very few things to say. I just can't seem to grasp my situation.